Why I'm starting this Journey

I was diagnosed with MS in July of 2014. My daughter was about a year and a half old at the time. Just after my diagnosis, both she and I headed to preschool, her as a student, me as a teacher. 

I made it through another year of teaching preschool, but I almost didn't. All the symptoms were getting harder and harder to deal with. I was taking medication (Gilenya) and it worked moderately well, but I still couldn't function as well as I did. 

I decided to take a year off and focus on my daughter. This coincided with the time I was taken off Gilenya due to liver issues. Then my husband switched jobs, so I couldn't start a new med until my new health insurance kicked in. Once it did, I saw my neurologist for a perscription for Copaxone. Right before I was going to start, I had a relapse. Between the relapse and the injections, this was not pleasant. I decided to go see the doctor again. 

I was hesitant to try Lemtrada for a few reasons. The first of witch was that I didn't know if I could have another baby after taking it. Then I found out, I could still have another baby as long as I waited until four months after treatment. Second, I was worried about the drug itself. It was only approved by the FDA a year and a half ago. But I found out that it had been used in other parts of the world with success for years. The third, which is still bugging me, and the main reason I'm starting this blog: how will having my immune system essentially whipped out affect my ability to be a good mom?  

I officially start Lemtrada on May 31st, and my first round will last Tuesday through Saturday.  I am going to spend the time during the day at the infusion center that is attached to my neurologist's office.  My mom is coming in to take care of my little girl Angela. My husband Lloyd is going with me to the infusion center. I'm getting ready to start this medicine that will hopefully give my my life back.